November 27, 2008

Pass the Nachos!

Stella celebrated her first Thanksgiving today by having her first meal of big girl food. After napping through the grown-up feast, she sat in her high chair for the first time and tasted some avocado mush.

It didn't start very well,

but eventually got better.


Our secret hope is she'll master guacamole by the weekend. Las Palmas!

More pics on Picasa.

November 20, 2008

Neighborhood Watch


It's good to know that while I'm at work, Stella and her sidekicks are keeping a lookout for any suspicious happenings. Good thing they're guarding the house, because today she started wearing her gold shoes.


Of course, she later peed on them, so I'm a little confused by her security measures...

For my Health

I will be posting updates from my treatment to the website listed below. Thank you to everyone for your kind and supportive words. My heart is heavy and full.

http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/markanajordan



November 11, 2008

A Personal Note from Stella's Mom


Dear friends,

I have been diagnosed with Hodgkin's Lymphoma. I wish there was a better way to say this, but cancer just isn't that polite.

Two months ago I found a lump in my neck above my clavicle bone. Being the procrastinator I am, it took me six weeks before I consulted with a doctor. (I also have a baby mind you, so scheduling these appointments can be difficult) So, in one month, one primary care doctor, a referral to a surgeon at Vanderbilt, four CT scans, a referral to an Oncologist, an ultrasound and ultimately a biopsy that lead to my diagnosis.

Today I met the Hematologist Oncologist at Vanderbilt that will be taking over my care. Thursday I will have a bone marrow biopsy, PET scan and a test that shows the strength of my heart and Friday I will have my first round of chemotherapy. I will have eight rounds of chemotherapy over the next four months and then five weeks of radiation. Hodgkin's Lymphoma is treatable and, ultimately, curable.

My greatest concern has been for Stella. My heart is broken. I waited so long to have this sweet baby and I don't want to miss one second. I also have loved breastfeeding her and tomorrow will be our last day together like that. But, she also is the reason that I know everything is going to be alright. She is so little and needs her mommy to be well, so I go into this thinking of her.

I wanted to know exactly where I stood before sharing this. I will do my best to update you all along the way.

Love,
Markana

November 4, 2008

O baby!


Tonight Stella helped us cheer our candidate into history. You would have to lack breath to not be moved by Barack Obama's ability to inspire and unify our nation. Just looking at him helps me believe that there is much hope for our country. We are a new America and our future looks bright from where I stand.

As parents we make choices for our children until they are able to find their own voice. My choice, and today's victory, I made for my daughter so that one day her voice will be heard. In this country she has the opportunity to be who she wants to be, live the life she wants to live and make decisions for herself that are hers to make. It is my job as her mother to protect that - for the next 4 years anyway.